~josepimorgan

scary combination of rants and steam blowing

This has been a load of bullshit for months, parents breaking up, brothers dead, dog's dead. I feeling like I'm losing everyone I gave a damn about.

I ain't doing this anymore, I'm disapearring from ya, don't know how long, and frankly ain't thinking much on it.

People telling me it's ok, it's ok. Why is it I hear all the time it's not gonna get any better, why do I feel like this world is crashin down on everyone, and why do I have this thing in the back of my head, telling me I should be the one in my brothers coffin?

I've been too worry about love and not worried enough about my own life. Telling myself I need someone beside me, when in the end I don't, I see people, man and woman living singles life's so why don't I? Maybe that's why my brother wasn't serious with alot of the girls he was with....I need to focus on my own ass, screw relationships and love. Regrets, that's all I remember anymore, where did my acomplishments go?

I'm taking off like I said, I'm only gonna contact a few people I believe I can still trust, I'm hoping I'm only feeling this way is cause of my brother's death. Blood-shot eyes and white knuckles aren't a normal thing for me.

farewell