~josepimorgan

June and July of 07 will forever go down to as the worst months in my life...

It's been awhile since I made a new journal, some might not like what I've got to say.

Back in Jun, my parents were fighting (it's something that's been going on for years), it got worse one night, to the point where I had to call the cops. It may not have been the best thing to do, but I was tired of the fighting. Anyway, my dad's no longer living at our house. They're gonna go through a divorce.

Next part, my dog kimberly, I've had her for years, around 13-15 years, she's not doing too good, and she's deaf now too. My family's talked about putting her down, i told them NO, she's my dog....I....I should be the one to do it, my dog, my responsibility. I haven't figured out when I'm gonna do it, I wish I had someone with it, cause I know Im gonna be hurting afterwards

But that's not exactly the worst thing to happen...



July 22 2007
I'm was coming back from my drill for the military, I was about 3-5 miles from okmulgee then I got a call from my mom. She asked me where I was, I told her and she asked if I was coming home, she said something happened. I asked what but she wouldn't say. I was afraid my dad may have done something ( like I said, they've been going through a divorce), when I got home, I saw a bunch of cars outside my house, and family members everywhere.

My dad said there wasn't enough room to park so to move around back, after that, he told me...

My oldest brother, Brian Lee Sweat, past away sometime around 3 that afternoon, then he grasp me in tears, I didn't cry, I was...in shock, I would of thought he was joking if I didn't see everyone there. They have my brother at St. Francis now for a aptopsy. I called some of my friends about it. It made me feel weird that everyone was crying but me at first, but it hit me alittle later on the phone when I was talking to Kelsie (one of my good friends in Missouri)....one of the rare moments I didn't just shead a tear, but fell down in a shower of my own tears.

They said my brother may have died from a heart attack.

I'm gonna do something special for my brother, I was thinking for singing his favorite song (Pink Fyold's Wish you were here), or do what my brother he wanted to happen, have someone put some pot in his coffin, hehe. I don't know, I haven't decided.

I might not be on for a little, but if I seem alittle distant, you'll know why, I'll try to keep my game face on.

love you bro, where ever you are...

In loving memory of Brian Lee Sweat
July 22 2007...